One Night Only...again

his chest rises and falls now at a steady pace.
the fire carries over still smoldering.
his heart thumps gently in my ear. I smile as he
twitches an itch on his nose. My sleeping beauty.
traced hearts on his neck and chest, my pinky explores
familiar territory. my mark left, branded. I've
conquered this body before as he has conquered mine.
He shifts and pulls me closer with a satisfied grunt.
safe. warmth. sleep.
cold. aware.
My eyes slowly open and reality sets in. alone between
the sheets. he's gone. we go back to our lives as friends.
avoiding eyes, mumbled hellos, "forgotten" nights.
we could never be.

madpassionatecrazymonkeyfire

slapped in the face with a hand i didn't know existed. empty tears swell. wtf. never been in this position before. and i LOVE different positions. flip the script and understand. high cry. swept away. ask me ask me. i'm fine. i swear.

i've figured things out. a little. ha. i don't NEED to find the man of my dreams now. i mean if i do HOLLER. but it would be nice to find the man of my reality, the man of my NOW now. and who knows how long that will last but i like having company, security, friendship and something to chew on. i feel like its impossible to have that with someone now a days. People want it all or just a sucky fuck. isn't there a middle ground? who cares if its healthy or not, slap my ass and call me crazy but i want FIRE. hot crazy passionate fire. is that too much to ask for??? cuddle me. its all i want...but then again...