UGHH so many feeeelings. i feel like i'm in middle school again. ugh. what am i looking for? why do i feel like there's something missing? i feel like i know what Nicole is talking about. and now i know what it is.... i miss the "earth-shattering bliss when time stops, planets collide, when tidal waves consumes the entire world and we are left together in a heap of exhaustion and touch."
i miss LOVE. and i think i just summed up my entire blog. with those three words. lol. little things though, the quirks, knowing every detail about someone. knowing what they are thinking by just looking in their eyes or their face or even finishing their sentences or knowing what they are going to say before they say it. knowing their hurt face, the i want to eat you up right now face, the face that shows and understands the trust, the bond you share. and pet peeves, to know what buttons to push in a fight. the times that you could look in someones eyes and get lost. the trust where you can walk around naked or fart and not feel embarrassed, or when you can say anything without censoring any thought. a safety, a vulnerability, arms to fall asleep in and to wake up to, little kisses that fix booboos and hurt feelings. letting someone in, with no walls just truth and just BEing. a best friend, a lover. how can i not want to find that again? i wanna fight and say i can be with out it. i want to say that its easy being single, i want to say that i feel free. that i'm focused and that i'm happy. i want to believe it when i say those things...
...and maybe i do, for a while.
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i'm pretty sure that's the most wonderful, touching entry this blog has ever seen, you're brilliant. don't ever stop. i love you.
-you know who (penguin)
I LOVE YOU...
yea baby. i miss it too. ugh. but we'll continue on and be strong....
much loveeeeeeeee
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