i hate change.

Yenna and Michael's Birthday Party

lots of love, lots of booze, lots of kisses. The first pic is supossed to me me. HAHA. so. things. looking up. i think they've kicked in a little. still stressed. not depressed. not sooo.....BLUE. confusifying feelings. not really sure where to go, what to think. I struck out but now i'm wanting to have more and more strike outs. and maybe its not a bad thing. ps why have i started a baseball analogy? whatever, it could be softball or something, thats gayer and more my style.

hurt feelings. over it. but it makes things clearer. CONNECTIONS connections. theme of my life, my recital. haha. things just keep changing...for the best i hope. i like to quote veronica when it comes to change in my life. shut up and read it. i know what you're thinking. ha.

You know those people who can predict when change is coming in their life? I'm not one of them. Change has a way of just walking up and punching me in the face.

but things always change, "they've been changing since the day you were born" - (vak stating the obvious but profound) ups and downs. rights and wrong. its never that black and white. its always latino. ok I found that funny. whatev.

Sabrina called me the other day. it made me realize that i'm not disconnected. Sabrina has this way of making everything ok by just calling me shitters and telling me to jerk off her arm. (response to me telling her shes making a cameo on my blog - "ur a little bit gayness") i love her. ok so i'm not depressed but how about emotional. wtf?

can i just go back to key west? please?