patterns

i've been thinking about patterns, patterns i don't fall into. other people do. its nice to sit back, disconnect and watch. reruns. Lifes a show and we all play a part. same old same old. the wall feels my wrath. i don't bruise easily anymore. i did last year. throw me against the wall and blame me for the lashing i give myself. drink mystery punch. drunken punches thrown. FREEZE. My all is more than enough. blinded by the sweet sunshine. never a waste though. learn. step back wild child. take a good look at me now. FRESH.

Where to go now? SWEAT? didn't mean to laugh at Nova. sorry, no time, no money for that. Manhattan maybe. what direction? i don't even know if i have the support of my parents right now. dancing, not my thing. i DO know my weaknesses. training. training. absorbing.
still not feeling it. maybe i will tomorrow. my aurora supports me only so much. I've never EVER been this angry.