X-ray the sky. the clouds are shaped like animals. look at the camel kneeling, and the barge. haha. rays brighten the edges. a silver lining? wheres mine?

I sang in studio. I'ts hard to Speak my Heart from Parade. It's scary singing in front of all opera people. I got a lot of good feedback from that. A lot of emotion, they said. well its all i have right now.

I needed to go home. needed to get away from here for a night. My parents noticed a change in me while we were talking over dinner. I would have to agree that I have been in many transitions these past few weeks. balence. I need to find it. It's hard for me to deal with change and everyday I have some new awakening that changes everything. I'm still trying to understand everything that is thrown at me on a daily basis.

Old friends, new friends...who can i overwhelm next? i feel like all i have to offer right now to people is emotional baggage.

I hate you heart.