Theory-- i just don't get it. i'm gonna fail this class...... ugh.
A.A meetings... not the place for me. Booze has not made my life unmanagable. A control that needs to be found. Dont' lie and tell me you didn't think I was out of control. I'll let it slide. Stand still. need to find balence. roadblocks. truthfully if i hold on to what I wish and want right now i'll drown. Great covo tonight. I feel awake for once. enough daydream endless nights.

It's been weird being back. so many relationships to fumble through. we reconnect with questions that basically ask, who are you? and Where have you been? Identity hasn't come foward with a problem with me since middle school. I feel little and in 8th grade again. finding myself.

rain. haven't smoked for a while. GO see URSULA and pay 2 dollars.