1st things 1st. recital date changed YET again. ugh. you're killing me poulenc.
Patterns, circles, spirals. right back at the beginning. square one. again and again. i feel like all i'm doing is running around and around going right back to the place i DON'T want to be. i can't help but feel constantly replaced again and again by something "better". and maybe i'm holding myself up too high. it has nothing to do with replacing. it just still is weird. it bothers. itches. hurts. and thats only one of the reasons i pull away. i pull away from everyone when they get involved. i can't help it. and maybe thats the best thing for me right now. to deal. i DO have to worry about me. i can't figure out why this gets to me so much sometimes. a power struggle within myself, that i'm definitely tired and worn out from fighting. however i'm not the only one pulling away. finding themselves. yet again. everyone might be tired of reading hearing listening about this. well i'm WAY more tired of it. why am i writing about it then....you might ask. just trying to make sense of what is JESSE. can some one explain him to me?? i'd love to know.
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bothers. itches. hurts.
that's the best damn explanation i've ever heard for it, haha!
and uhm, this jesse you speak of? well, just like you said: he's my drunk soul twin. hahaha
when your recital finally is scheduled i'll come see you then... and we can show the world why we're drunk soul twins. Love!
I will never ever be tired of reading hearing or listening to this, just as long as you hold my nonexistent hair while I vomit.
umm...lets see...I really like this entry. I mean..life is one circle, isn't. Elton John reminds us of that in his song "Circle of Life" It never ends...just keeps going. It's what you do to that circle that helps...I mean i have no freakin clue!!!
Sorry about the Poulenc
I hope this works...ha
i will never replace you. :-)
jesse is a little monkey who is loved by all who see him! and he has a fierce penguino friend named stearny and they love one another until they die. the end.
who are these bitches who beat me to comment on your blog??
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